You'll be in my heart <3

#133: high school never ends

2009-09-18T06:31:12Z

Yay today was a good day. Haha nothing super interesting or exciting happened but I'm happy and I kinda want to have a blog entry to remember this nice day. I hate how the day after a good day is always a bad day though. Now if only I didn't have morning classes every day then then then I'd probably continue rambling but it's like 2.30am and I have class at 8am.

Thank God so so much. Even though I seriously doubt so, I hope things will remain this way. :] Good night.

#132: NYC

2009-09-13T21:10:30Z

Hiiii so I haven't blogged yet at all. It's been exactly 2 weeks since Move-In Day but honestly it feels like it's been at least a month. College has been pretty awesome, all in all. I mean there were loads of things to get used to but now it's getting pretty good; this week was a good week. Today's a good day. Haha. Am loving Sunday!

Okay so I haven't been doing anything much since school started actually. First week was Welcome Week so yeah. Thought orientation was quite like any other orientation we've been to; I don't really like orientations in general but met some nice people. There are also lots of fun people in my hall so that's good too. Yeah really haven't been doing much omg! Weekdays it's just been classes, and random chilling in between. Weekends it's just more chilling, sometimes with drinks hehe. Uhhhh what else. Well that's pretty much it actually. Church on Sunday mornings and attempted studying in the afternoon. It's not working out very well. But I'm feeling so comfortable now it's pretty nice. Met some more nice people today so yay hopefully I'll see them again. The school's so big it's so hard so see people regularly..

I haven't been taking photos but will do so soon. My dorm room's really nice thanks to my roommates so I'll try to post pictures soon! Back to my readings for now. :(

#131: we're so close but we're so far away

2009-08-27T00:55:30Z

I think this blog entry is almost obligatory. Finally, the 8-month break is over! Yes it whizzed past and it felt more like a summer as opposed to 2/3 of a year. I don't know if it was the best 8 months of my life so far or anything, but it was pretty damn good. I developed a bunch of photos when I left Singapore in January and a couple of days ago I went to develop some more. Wanted to develop some taken during the March/April period when I went back. And it really kind of hit me that there were so so so so so so so many good times to cherish and remember forever. That sounded really cheesy. Rarr.

Bringing all of this (and more) with me! :)

Ahh so long ago.

Aight. Bye bye room in Scotland which has been so comfortable and cosy and has accompanied for the entire night every night I'm home!

Haha spot yourselves friends! I wanted to sort everything out and arrange them in chronological order or something but there were too many so I just scrambled everything and randomly stuffed photos in. But I've been missing all of my friends for pretty long already so at the very least leaving Singapore earlier made leaving for college easier. Gonna bring a lot of memorable stuff to display in my dorm though! Might be why my luggage is exploding.

So to sum it all up, in the past 8 months I:
1. had the best birthday ever.
2. grew closer to already close friends.
3. had tons and tons of fun (e.g. zx's house, xmas, airport, crazy outings everywhere etc etc etc etc etc^∞).
4. left my friends.
5. appreciated Skype immensely.
6. travelled a lot (Singapore, Scotland, England, China, Sweden, Switzerland); I think I'm totally ready to settle down.
7. caught up with people I haven't talked to since forever and got to know a few people better.

Yeah so I guess it's been pretty fulfilling. But I am ready for a new beginning (with an address on Fifth Avenue :D:D:D) and a new life. The scariness of it all has been diminishing and I'm just really excited and I'm praying really hard that everything's going to be good.

Keep in touch friends! Will continue missing you guys and I'm looking forward to Christmas 2009 already. <3

#129: don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say

2009-08-23T01:54:51Z

Hmmm haven't blogged for a while. Got a number of things to cover!

#1: SWITZERLAND
Awesome place. Not gonna blog in detail because I won't be able to make it interesting. Photos on Fb. The weather was insanely good and it's so nice to be surrounded by mountains and lakes even though Switzerland is very modern. And my parents are quite fun! Haha well there are fun moments. My dad does really random retarded things (not on purpose) gosh. What else what else. Oh it's freaking expensive my Starbucks java chip frappuccino costed me 8 Swiss francs which is about 8 US dollars which is just annoying. Plus I shopped way less than I did in Sweden and China. Bwaahhh but that may be a good thing will be continued later in the post haha.
One more random thing. My shoes gave me a funny patterned foot tan! I was mostly wearing these really cheap flats which I bought from China where they broke twice within 2 weeks of purchase. But I loved them so much I insisted on going to the cobbler each time to get them repaired and nobody understood why. Then I was at H&M in Geneva and there was this girl who was like encircling me and my mom thought I was blocking her way or something. And then finally she said to me 'you have SUCH NICE SHOES where did you buy them??'. Whoohoo my efforts have finally been justified she looked so disappointed when I said 'China' though hahaha but yes I'm very triumphant about this.

Okay I don't think you can really tell but it's because my camera sucks the patterns are there!! Right anyways this isn't very interesting I know.

#2: I HATE PACKING
Freaking cannot decide on how much to bring. And I think I have too many sweaters/jackets/cardigans. Went a bit crazy months ago because Scotland's cold. Don't think I have enough tops to go with them hahaha. Plus I'm a terrible packer when I'm packing I really feel like I'm going to wear everything. Haha thank goodness both my parents are going to NY with me I can hence afford to bring 2.5 x the weight limit worth of stuff! Actually haven't started packing yet but was trying to roughly sort out clothes till I got all fed up. Okay okay so here's a rough list of things to bring friends please inform me if I'm leaving something out!

CLOTHES, SHOES, BAGS, SCARVES, BELTS, ACCESSORIES
TOILETRIES
BOOKS, NECESSARY DOCUMENTS
PHOTOS OF FRIENDS AND FAMILY
RACKETS
ELECTRICAL SHIT (CHARGERS ETC)
PILLOW, SLEEPING BAG?
FOOD?

Haha gosh it looks much less daunting like that. I need help omg how to decide on what to leave out! I tried asking myself whether I really needed this (like Shopaholic!) after I took out something from my closet but the answer always leaned towards YES it so doesn't work with stuff that you already own. Sigh.

#3: ASLKDFJALSDKJ
Time is flying by way too quickly. Been catching up/staying in touch with people, and I really hope that things can sort of stay the same after school starts. I can't believe I'm actually going off to college! It's just so so surreal. I'm starting to get pretty excited and I just hope that everything's going to be fine. More than fine. It should. Haha no worrying!! Proverbs 15:15 (Y).

Suddenly there are lots of things to do before I go. Friends who don't have Skype please get Skype!
4 MORE DAYS.

# 128: from the land of peace and chocolates and army knives

2009-08-13T20:24:33Z

Too many blog posts and tweets to read!! Hate the hotel computer it's oily. And the 'z' and 'y' are swapped on the keyboard no idea why I keep typing things like whz. And zes. And okaz. Zes zou get the point I think. Haha anzwazs. SHIT I mean anyways. Actually I don't think I'm going to blog came here to read entries but too many too lazy need to shower. Am very sunburnt but happy that it's so hot and sunny. Awesome improvement from Scotland. Okay will blog when I get back and I realize that's freaking near school starting.

Will tweet in the meantime I guess. Bye!

#127: there's beauty in the breakdown

2009-08-10T02:24:28Z

Weekend afternoons are a good time to come online! Was online much earlier today, 3pm = 10pm in Singapore. Caught up with many many people yay. Feels great but I'm missing school terribly now. Minus the terrors of studying it was the seriously the best. Am now wondering if uni's going to be able to top all of it. But it's all very exciting nonetheless! Yes yes determined to be positive.

Have nothing to blog about. Switzerland in 2 days! Will be back on the 20th and leaving for NYC on the 27th. :D Can't wait to get out of here omg. The lazy days which seemed so appealing last year at this time aren't appealing anymore I'm too bored for my own good. Don't feel like sleeping yet either grrrr. Looking forward to the nice hot mug of chai tea latte that I'm going to make when I wake up though. Hahaha aight shall go watch videos on Youtube this is pointless.

Note to self: Complete AlcoholEdu + Plagiarism Tut asap! Have been putting everything off even though (because?) I have endless amounts of free time.

/edit
HAHA just finished skyping zx for the first time! Lol he kept getting tricked into making ugly faces and screenshot-ed.

Okay it's now 5am going to try to sleep.

#123: moments of disarray

2009-07-31T00:51:49Z

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." - 2 Timothy 1:7

#121: where troubles melt like lemon drops

2009-07-23T02:03:00Z

Wasn't intending to blog today. But how often do you see a gigantic rainbow right! It was actually two gigantic rainbows; one the reflection of the other according to my mom. Haha it was raining really heavily throughout the afternoon and I was like wth the weather is really depressing and then I looked out of my window and I was like whoa.

double rainbow :D

Good sign perhaps? :)

#120: and teach myself some disregard

2009-07-22T00:46:23Z

There's this awesome place near my place which is absolutely perfect to just chill. It's a pretty cliff by the beach and the temperatures are perfect at this time of the year. Friends you're supposed to be here NOW and we're supposed to be chilling there and having nice meaningful/meaningless chitchat. :(

I really really wanna talk to somebody now but surprise surprise it's the time of the night when nobody I want to talk to is online.

Haha funny Polish dudes

Hmm things aren't really going according to planned.

#119: say hello to goodbye

2009-07-21T01:32:20Z

Omg I just tried blogging twice and I CAN'T. I don't know how to write today nothing I write feels right and everything feels too embarrassing to type out I don't know why!! Now I think I just wasted almost an hour of my time typing and backspacing and eventually ending up with this measly bit of ranting.

Okay I give up I'm in a weird mood. To summarize, I guess I'm just a little disappointed and I feel like I'm going to be a bit more disappointed soon. Also random things randomly occur to me but these things are pretty irrelevant. And I sometimes dream about the most unexpected people which I find kinda cool especially if dreams reflect reality to some extent. And errr I'm getting immunized from meningococcal meningitis tomorrow, that is if the nurse lets me.

That took 5 minutes. Bye everyone I miss you guys.

#117: look how they shine

2009-07-18T01:18:33Z

Oh man Lydia was talking about the good times i.e. post-As-pre-army and now I am missing everything too. Hahaha in particular the night when we 'partied' at Zx's house from afternoon all the way till the middle of the night! It's weird back then I never seemed to have the time to sit down and blog about everything that's going on. Btw, MS puked on me that night it was gross it was my first time being puked on and I'm never going to forget it and he's going to owe me for that forever and ever and ever. Funny stuff happened in the bathroom after that (I wasn't allowed to go in) but I remember Zx and Hj very happily recounting the events I'm laughing to myself now don't think I should publicize the events here even though I'm pretty sure MS won't read this. Hahahaha. Oh oh this has nothing to do with anything but I just watched Wedding Crashers on TV and I think it is very very very funny! One of the funniest comedies I've seen. (Y)(Y)

stupid puker moments before the puking

good times (:

Man time really flies. And sometimes I feel like I'm hardly in the right place at the right time. Yeaah but not really in the mood to elaborate at the moment. The huge chunk of html I'm looking at right above is making me really wanna end this post now. Good night.

#116: do you know what's worth fighting for

2009-07-15T00:58:39Z

Omg I'm so bored. Don't wanna start watching shows till after 2. Nighttime is passing reaaallly slowly today.

And I want a proper camera! With big changeable lenses and all. Okay I know nothing about photography haha but I received some photos from playing beach volleyball and the multi-shot function is rather cool I feel like I have my own cartoon.

Haha there were like hundreds of photos in the CD the photo-taking people gave us and I could practically watch myself play. Hahaha and my serve's like always exactly the same! Lol I am rather amused.

Aight. 1.5 seasons of Gilmore Girls to go and then I'm onto Skins!

#115: 一聲傲笑, 聲音在飄

2009-07-13T01:15:14Z

What's wrong with me
Wro-o-ong with me
我還相信愛　怎麼那麼奇怪 ?!

Haha I don't care what anyone thinks I love Leehom and everything about him. Was randomly looking for songs which I have but haven't listened to for a while and so I came across this -- 搖滾怎麼了!! And then I remembered that I actually bought the single for this, the only single that I've ever bought. I am such a good fan I know (by the way, singles are a huge rip-off). And after that I proceeded to look for the MV (they should totally include this in the CD like hello I paid I-can't-remember-how-much for 1 track? but at least it's Leehom and I love Leehom <3 ) on Youtube. And then I started to have major Leehom concert withdrawal symptoms from last year!

I didn't even get to blog about my incredibly awesome Leehom-in-real-life-about-50-metres-away experience last year because the concert was on November 1st which, if you remember, was 2 days before A levels. Just watched a bunch of concert videos and oh man I forgot how high I was throughout the thing! I was damn impatient because as usual the concert started like an hour or something after it's supposed to but when it did I remember sitting really still and really quietly for awhile and feeling damn freaking overwhelmed. And surreal and in complete awe of what I was seeing. And starstruck and and like I was going to burst out crying for no apparent reason. Omg what if I can't find anyone to go to his concerts with me in the US!!! I think I gotta be prepared to pay people to go for his concerts with me. YI-LIN please come please come please come haha remember when we shook his hand?! Haha yes I have done a lot of rather fangirl-ish and embarrassing things but it don't matter because it's always worth it. And that sounded a bit gross.

I don't think anyone is going to actually watch this (except maybe Yi-lin if she's not busy with her happening life). Haha but it is okay I will click on it and watch it myself. Leehom in Singapore!

The song only starts like 2 minutes into the video because of the concert introduction and stuff. I was there, somewhere, and mesmerized throughout of course! And I think he sounds really good live! No different from and actually perhaps better than the CD and way more satisfaction anyhow :) Teehee okay no more of this intensive gushing I imagine that it gets annoying.

#113: just call my name, and i'll be there

2009-07-10T00:43:08Z

Oh man this is like the 10th time I've started the post. Don't know how to start entries! And I think I totally CANNOT express myself for nuts. I read the stuff I write and sometimes I'm like whaaaat was I thinking? Haha. Yeah I feel like ranting and writing all of my random thoughts on my walls right now so that I can literally see my thoughts surrounding me but that is obviously unfeasible because can you imagine your mom knowing everything you're thinking? I don't know I hate it when my mom knows exactly what's going through my head it's so freaky. I mean, yeah mothers are supposed to know their daughters really well but I totally don't understand how that can be possible. Been watching lots of Gilmore Girls so I do think it's pretty cool how Rory and Lorelai confide in each other like they're friends but seriously that's just weird.

And then I was thinking that I don't think there're people who know me better than my mom. Strangely. When I'm blogging and talking or expressing myself it's generally accommodating to whoever's hearing me. Or else whatever I'm saying is completely neutral. I don't know I guess I'm super uncomfortable with being judged and stuff. It's like one of those things I don't like about myself. Okay so right now I'm sort of trying to blog for myself.

Yup so lately lots of exciting things seem to be happening for lots of people. And I think that's awesome! I think it's awesome that people are already going into Chapter 2 of life and are totally enjoying themselves. I can't wait to start school too. It's been a good, tiring 18 years so far and even though university is still school it's like this real life plus school thing. And at 18 I think we're pretty much shaped? As in personality-wise. And fundamentally, we're probably going to remain the same. We're also finally treated as actual adults. It's kind of cool, not feeling like my world is totally falling apart every few days because of some weird trivial thing or some boy or whatever. So yeah, I'm constantly preparing myself for a NEW beginning and trying not to worry about the rest of the stuff. I really like that I'm going to New York because it's so, so diverse; I don't think there's anything else about the place that matters more right now.

I wanna meet people who I have loads in common with. I wanna meet people who are completely different. I wanna realize that some things that I feel like I'm alone in, I'm actually not. I decided (for now) that I wanna marry somebody who really understands me and is not painful to look at and is tall and is not annoying in any way and the rest doesn't really matter. I wanna re-meet people that I used to know and laugh and catch up. I want to have those 'airport moments' when you meet each other's eyes and then start shrieking and running towards each other and go 'OMG OMG OMG!'. And then we try really really hard not to drift apart again. Because it sucks to lose people and it sucks when people exit from your life and everything is different. And right now, everything is going to be different.

I don't think now is the right time to make plans. For me at least. I'm pretty much at the edge right now and I have no idea what's below. There's so far only one place right now that I can imagine myself living in years down the road, and very very weirdly it's Beijing. Hahaha I don't think I've said this to anyone before. Okay I'm expecting this to change but there are many many reasons and Beijing is really different from the rest of China. Okay I don't foresee this happening. As of now I think my parents are pretty much expecting me to stay in the US which is likely but I really can't tell because I haven't gone there. Hmmmmm.

Haha whatever mostly I just wanna have fun! Uni's gotta be fun. It has to. It absolutely has to. Trying not to get my hopes up but maybe I should just go all out being excited. Lol eh and Shoo please set up your Skype soon I miss talking to you!! I realize that we talk so much better in person; our very unfruitful online conversations are just too lame. Anyways I never seem to be able to have a general theme or whatever to my entries. Hahaha I would like to be able to write very interestingly well but oh well. BYEBYE. Pirated dvds await me.

#112: these streets are filled with memories

2009-07-07T00:35:38Z

Okay I'm about to spam photos! Haha I think blogging in detail about Sweden and whatever in words is just going to be tedious and boring to read so hence the spamming.

Random sightseeing in Stockholm and Uppsala, a really really nice town about 30 mins from Stockholm. Our hotel was there due to the venue of my dad's conference..

Haha shopped quite a bit as usual! Stockholm had H&M everywhere; there was like 1 every 100m or less seriously. Heehee but did most of the shopping in Uppsala because I did (tried to do) arty stuff in Stockholm :D

Nobel Museum

Random sights of Stockholm

Royal Palace

Food was good too!

Awesome hotel breakfast + ice cream for lunch everyday! Mmmmm

The 7-11 slushies were super super gooooood. Super.

Greek food

Italian food, alfresco!

Okay this is in Scotland but shall just post them up too. Some place called Scone Palace, during the triple family gathering over the weekend..

Hahahaha the places the parents wanted to visit were rather boring so yeah

And I realized I'm freaking short.

Aight that's it! Haha mega spamming oops but I uploaded them all onto Photobucket already and pasting html codes is really rather convenient. :)
Going to watch Transformers tomorrow; it'd better be good like everyone says it is!!

/edit
Oh man I realized the photos are really huge! Ugh but lazy to resize everything; sorry for the humongousness.

#111: love, actually is all around

2009-07-06T01:18:22Z

Okay so I planned to upload photos and spam the blog with photos today but I'm too lazy. Haha as usual. Tomorrow! Shall do it during the day when I have hours and hours of free time. Had a really busy week. Ex-neighbors came over from Singapore (haha Shoo Avenged Sevenfold) so we had some multi-family gatherings. I just got back a while ago and just finished watched Love Actually on TV while waiting for my hair to dry; I still cry at the same parts even though I've seen it like ten million times. Heee.

I super super miss being a kid right now. It's beginning to really sink in that school's starting again, that I'm going to be far away from almost everyone and everything I know. Life was truly awesome as a kid. I think I had a pretty good childhood; it was nice and there are a lot of good times that I can vaguely remember. It's a bit strange how stuff like this only feels like it mattered years and years down the road. When everything's so different that I can hardly believe that everything I vaguely remember actually happened. It's so strangely surreal.

And somehow it seems like life feels less perfect as we get older. I'm not about to start complaining that life sucks and blah blah blah, but I honestly think so and I'm really trying to come to terms with EVERYTHING right now. Sometimes I'm just plain scared of going away. I don't like it when people talk about how I'm going to be so far away and in future we probably won't see each other anymore. I want to keep in touch with everybody and a few years down the road we'll all reunite and shriek and hug at the airport like they did in Love Actually. :) I know that I'm making the right decision with regard to The Future, and I know everyone else is probably going through the same thing, but what if everything isn't what I expected it to be?

When I was little everytime we moved I'd make a huge fuss and usually beg my parents to let me stay where I am. I'd think that it was going to be horrible and that I was going to hate the place immensely. But it always turned out fine, much better than I expect at least. Now it's weird because I'm making the decision to go away from where I'm comfortable, and I actually think that things are going to be fine, and probably even better. So for some reason I have a feeling that it's going to suck because everything's always not what I expect...

I'm just really sick of analyzing my life. I'm tired of thinking about this and that and trying to come up with random pointless conclusions. I just really miss the times when all that seemed to matter were not pissing my mom off and playing stupid games with my little friends. Yeaaaah so whatever I think it's time to stop. And just whack. Hahaha not really into making plans anyways I just need random bursts of happiness once in a while to keep me going. Quoting www.givesmehope.com, "Life is beautiful today!" Yeah GMHers, optimism ftw.

Lol still wanna be a kid again for a while. But wth I'm 18 years old and life has to go on. Woohoo. Enough of this crap photos tomorrow and I'm off to watch shows until my eyes cannot stay open any longer.

By the way I am rather bummed that Andy Roddick lost today. Hahah bleagh. Whatever. Byeee.

#110: listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain

2009-06-28T01:05:02Z

I'm off to Sweden in the morning! Excited in general about going to someplace new but have no idea what to expect. Lots of Ikea and H&M? Haha. As usual, there's nothing really worth blogging about. But I have to document this lifestyle so that I can read about it in the future. I don't think I'm going to get another chance to live like a complete sloth. Sigh.

Got a new layout today. Had immense help from Lynette. Didn't do any of it myself (I tried but ended up unsuccessful and erasing all my settings in the process). So Lynette came to my rescue. That's what friends are for right! Yay. What else. Watched Wimbledon as usual. Murray is freaking awesome I was so in awe. I want my kid to be a tennis player omg then I can go watch all the matches and get awesome seats.

I'm also addicted to 陶喆. Yes recently listening to a bit of Chinese music because I can't find anymore new songs. Yeah but 陶喆 is really quite awesome. Almost as awesome as Leehom! Okay overall not really but I'm really really into his songs now. And I was reading stuff on the internet (I'm really really really free sorry) and it seems like he's a very good Christian. Found an interview where he talked about his relationship with God, and how God influences his career and his music. And the way he said things was easy to relate to and at the end of it I was somewhat inspired. And his songs seem to sound even better after sort of knowing where he's coming from. Hmm.

Okay that's it. Gotta wake up at 9 tomorrow so I'm going to watch shows and hopefully start feeling sleepy by 3?
Yup back on Friday. Then I can upload photos and I think I'll have more stuff to blog about. Byeeee.

#109: don't fade away

2009-06-26T00:11:23Z

OKAY so here's some of my month of June. In photos!
Haha I kind of like this one; I think my aunt or someone took it while I was playing badminton.

The street where my grandparents live.

Cycling in Nanjing! This lake called Xuanwu Lake. The weather was pretty awesome.

Wuhan. I didn't really like the place but oh well.

This amusement park called Dinosaurland. Haha there was one pretty good ride but that was about it?

Haha Shanghai! Xin Tian Di. I love that place :D

Filling out a feedback form at Ding Tai Fung. By far the best one I've been to!!

Coffee over Skype with Nat :) Hahaha friends lets all have coffee sometime aight.

K. That's about it. Off to watch Gilmore Girls!

#108: what i would do

2009-06-24T17:41:14Z

It's been ages since I've blogged during the day! Hahaha. Okay as usual I've been on the couch since I woke up. Just had dinner. Had the awesome Peking duck from Sainsbury's (huge supermarket thing) which a few months ago apparently disappeared but is now back. (Mom and I cycled 4 ducks back) Lol.

Okay so I've been watching lots of Wimbledon. It's still on and basically for the entire afternoon I do all things while watching Wimbledon. And it keeps occurring to me how cool it'd be to be Roger Federer? I mean he's really got everything anyone could possibly want. He makes $$$$$$$$$$$$ playing tennis i.e. doing something that he actually enjoys doing. Plus he's practically the best player in tennis history. Plus he's happily married and going to be a dad. And every time he starts tearing and is all overjoyed I'm like wow it's another dream come true. I wish all my dreams could come true too? Damn.

#107: i'll find a way to shine

2009-06-23T00:08:11Z

Spent most of the day figuring out visa crap for uni. I knew I forgot to do something! Haha it's times like this which make me totally thankful for my mother. She's terribly efficient and organized and I'm so not? I was freaking out and she got everything ready and told me everything I needed to do. Hahaha sigh I am so not ready to move away and live on my own.

Today was a really warm day. I ate a ton of giant strawberries. They are huge. I took 6 medium-sized bites per strawberry. When I'm feeling not-so-lazy to wash the blender afterwards, I'm going to make exotic fruity summer drinks! FRIENDS SEE WHAT YOU'RE MISSING OUT ON IF YOU DON'T COME ):

I feel life slowing down again... I hope school'll be full of things that I'd look forward to. I was thinking about people in general. So many people have come in and out and in and out of my life. And actually everyone is really special. And I have a feeling that someday, somewhere else we'll somehow meet again. And I'm super looking forward to that coincidence! I just hope that I'll be able to find another group of equally good friends in uni; I think it'd be easier to keep in touch after uni. Hate how things just fade away.

Haven't been able to stay up as late as I want to these days. I fell asleep randomly at 2.30 yesterday I think and then I woke up an hour later and resumed my msn conversations as if I was awake all along haha. The whole night was super fuzzy I have fuzzy impressions of what I typed and now it feels as if I was drunk or I was dreaming. Hahaha. Stupid jet-lag.

Not going to sleep before 4am today I gotta get my sleep cycle back!! Haha and if not I'm never going to finish my 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls, Private Practice and Skins. I really like Gilmore Girls I know it's old but it's just really really nice; it's funny, it's easy to relate to and Rory's boyfriends are all so goodlooking. Gosh.

Oh oh and Wimbledon has started. It's more awesome than usual because there's no time difference and I can watch all the matches I want :)
Haha this was totally random I know but I don't have anything in particular to blog about but I felt like blogging. Byee.

#106: would it matter anyway

2009-06-22T00:40:02Z

Bored! I kinda like way my stuff looks on both sides of my bed. Lotsa stuff with sentimental value. Conveniently made use of Bluetooth. I've got some other photos that I wanna post but they're not as convenient so yeah later I guess when I'm more bored and not lazy.

I don't know what to blog about? School starts in like 2 months. 2 months more of solid bumming. Argh I wish Scotland and Singapore were one MRT stop away like in Nat's dream! Haha then I wouldn't be missing so many people right now. Hmm I'm like studying the above photos as I type and I realize that almost everything on my bedside drawer was a gift. And some of the stuff on my desk too heee.

sheisthestar@gmail.com says: (8:38:32 AM)

I REALISED IT'S SUPER UN FUN NOW THAT SCHOOL HAS ENDED

sheisthestar@gmail.com says: (8:38:44 AM)

COS EVEN IF THERE IS ANY GOSSIP WE WONT HEAR ABT IT

I miss school. Hahaha this is an utterly random entry forget it I'm going to go talk to Lynette will blog another time instead.

#105: summertime

2009-06-09T05:55:27Z

I feel really MIA now I'm sorry friends for being a horrible absent friend lately :( Haha have a number of things to blog about but none in detail.

1. Shanghai! Another nice big city I really really really like big cities now so yay for uni choice.
2. I AM SICK OF SHOPPING. Haha ransacked H&M in Shanghai :) So recently I've acquired 4 pairs of shoes, 6 random tops, 2 dresses, 2 scarves, 2 pairs of shorts, 1 skirt, 1 vest, 1 pair of jeans, 1 polo tee, 1 cropped denim jacket + random basic tees and accessories. Actually it's not that much because shopping started from Scotland right before China and there's not much else to do in Beijing and Shanghai :)
3. I still want a new bag for school!
4. FRIENDS WHY ARE YOU GUYS NOT COMING TO SCOTLAND ANYMORE :( :(
5. I'm going to Wuhan tomorrow and I think it's going to be boring because it's small and not very modern.
6. I've been exercising!! Haha woke up at SIX FORTY FIVE to play badminton.
7. On Season 4 of Prison Break FINALLY. Nice nice nice nice nice show.
8. My relatives are rather fun! Kinda think the whole round-table-meals-with-everyone-drinking-beer culture in China is fun.
9. FRIENDS I MISS YOU GUYS! :( Lack of readily available internet from my grandparents' house + my Mac's incompatibility with Nanjing wireless is not helping.
10. Holidays are nice. There's nothing bothering me because I feel so damn far away.
11. Don't want school to start. Yet.

I'll upload photos or something sometime! Catch up soon friends :) Going to try and go online tomorrow night in the hotel.

#104: walking on sunshine

2009-05-26T16:44:46Z

HI FROM BEIJING FRIENDS!
Haha I'm continuing with my already really slack life. But at least I have more things to do now; I don't bum around at home all day long anymore. Beijing is pretty awesome it's so nice and big and modern. I think I really need to live in a big city in the future. Feel so much happier in Beijing compared to Nanjing lol. Maybe it's because of the Olympics and stuff but Beijing's reasonably clean and there are tall modern buildings everywhere. It looks like a giant Singapore they even have Raffles City hahaha. Been shopping like mad since the moment I got here haha. Shopping and eating are my main activities now. Bought 3 pairs of shoes yesterday, which means I bought 4 pairs of shoes in the last 2 weeks. Haha.

Ate a ton of sashimi just now. Finally satisfied my cravings for sashimi and bubble tea. Overdid it a bit I think my stomach's not doing so good. Haha nighttime life is still quite the same though! Plopped on the bed once more with French Open and msn and Prison Break. :D I love this holiday life now I don't want school to start at all ):

Okay too lazy to go on. Toodles

#103: hit restart, pause it at our favorite parts, skip the goodbyes

2009-05-18T02:05:29Z

I am completely numb with respect to everything that is happening in my life right now.
I think about a lot of things daily, but they don't make me feel sad. Or happy. Or anything at all really.
I feel like I'm really growing up? And honestly it scares me.

Okay so One Tree Hill was showing on TV today. Random episode from S5 which felt quite relevant to life nowadays coincidentally.

"Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you’re looking back instead of forward you wanna believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You wanna believe that you’re leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered."

And then I was thinking like because OTH shows the characters during high school, and then after high school, which is kinda like what a lot of us J3s are going through right now. And they are obviously a lot more grown-up in S5, compared to the earlier seasons which I'd been catching up on (I really have a lot of time I know). Life out of school seems way different and so much more unprotected. September is getting nearer and nearer. I'm going to be living by myself and taking care of myself from September onwards!! I'm excited, but really really scared too. Plans almost never follow through (by plans I mean relatively realistic hopes and dreams), so who knows what we're in for man.

I think I got over everything already. Totally ready to move on with life. It's just that there are days in the past which are very worth reliving, and moments that really feel like they matter. Hopefully there'll be a lot more to come in the future?

Haha but whatever all thoughts will be put on hold when I go to China which is in ONE DAY! Whoohoo. Slightly bummed that I can't watch American Idol on TV but oh well there's always greatstufftv. Tomorrow will be spent packing :( and starting S3 of Prison Break. I'm getting addicted hahaha I highly recommend it. Aight that's it.

#102: i remember all of those instances when you smiled

2009-05-16T00:03:38Z

4 more days! And then I'm off to China. Haha okay it doesn't sound very happening. But I was telling a random volleyball person that I was going to China and she seemed to think it was really cool and faraway so it IS happening when I'm all the way in Scotland aight. Regardless, I'm really really excited. Haven't been back for ages (since Sec 4) so I'm looking forward to see my extended family members again.

Hmm what else. Life's still pretty much the same; my days still consist of alternating movement between my bed and the couch in the living room and the kitchen. Oh oh went shopping yesterday with the mother. Bought a substantial amount of clothing and a new pair of shoes! Super happy with the lot (no items were bought at the original price btw yes my mom and I are just too good I know), and I'm also looking forward to my holiday because I can actually wear the stuff. I kinda just stay dressed in what I sleep in these days lol.

Nothing much to blog about actually but I feel like typing stuff out? Haha. I'm getting more excited for university now! I don't like how everything is very temporary right now. Going off to university's going to be a huge step actually, come to think of it. I've always assumed that I'd just stay on in the US after I graduate. So I guess when time comes to go off it's goodbye to many things. Haha maybe by the time we graduate China will be powerful and cool so I'll work in China? Or maybe I'll run into Leehom in NY and then I'll fly back to Taiwan and marry him :D:D Or perhaps I'll go back to Singapore. I really don't know omg I wonder where I'm going to end up.

Ah shit I miss a lot of people and a lot of things! I'm not particularly emo or depressed or anything. I'm mostly in a good mood and very contented with my life at the moment but it kind of sucks to realize that a lot of things don't matter anymore. I can think of a number of things lately that would have made me very happy/very annoyed previously, but not anymore. I feel numb. I try not to care about anything because there's no point.

Really can't wait for Lydia and Shoo to get here!! Haha. We can relive the old times one last time :) It's so scary because I don't know when the next time we meet up after that will be. And that pretty much goes for all the people I miss right now? Oh gosh. Must keep in touch because I know I'll feel the loss at some point.

Nothing lasts,
but there are some things you'll never forget