#93: sometimes goodbye is a second chance
I think I'm getting sick of talking/thinking about The Future. 
I don't think it's going to be all that great and exciting when we're really there because whatever I'm going to be doing it's still Life and Life in general kind of sucks. 
My mom took out boxes and boxes of photo albums from the garage for me to sort out and that was kind of fun. I obtained a mini recap of my life so far and I remembered a lot of things which I had otherwise forgotten. You're right, it's the memories that count. But it really scares me though; time is passing by waaay too quickly. 
I don't think I'm quite ready to live on my own and look out for myself and fight for my survival in the Real World. I kinda just wanna stay put and remember all the nice things that happened in my life so far, feel happy that they happened and wonder if whoever's involved in the memory remembers too. Feels like some big changes are about to be made and I don't know how to prepare myself. 

Utterly unrelated and on a lighter note, I finally transferred all my Leehom CDs to my iTunes :) Hahaha. I don't think I'm going to ever get over how perfect he is oh gosh. The world needs more of these people! I was looking through the stuff and i think he was like valedictorian of his high school + National Merit Scholar? And then of course there's the perfect score for SATs and Williams College. How kick-ass is that eh Shoo :D Plus he was some baseball pro. So basically he's handsome and hot and sporty and musical and smart and he can speak a ton of languages. AND he has a good sense of humour. Wow. Hahaha I'm going to stop the gushing it just makes it sadder that I'm probably not going to ever meet this very perfect guy. Damnzzzzzz. 

Supposed to sleep by 3am which is 20mins away and I'm not sleepy at allllllll.