| #116: do you know what's worth fighting for |
[July 15, 2009 @ 1:36am] |
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Omg I'm so bored. Don't wanna start watching shows till after 2. Nighttime is passing reaaallly slowly today.
And I want a proper camera! With big changeable lenses and all. Okay I know nothing about photography haha but I received some photos from playing beach volleyball and the multi-shot function is rather cool I feel like I have my own cartoon.
( 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 )
Haha there were like hundreds of photos in the CD the photo-taking people gave us and I could practically watch myself play. Hahaha and my serve's like always exactly the same! Lol I am rather amused.
Aight. 1.5 seasons of Gilmore Girls to go and then I'm onto Skins!
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| #115: 一聲傲笑, 聲音在飄 |
[July 13, 2009 @ 1:43am] |
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搖滾怎麼了!! - 王力宏Leehom Wang |
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What's wrong with me
Wro-o-ong with me
我還相信愛 怎麼那麼奇怪 ?!
Haha I don't care what anyone thinks I love Leehom and everything about him. Was randomly looking for songs which I have but haven't listened to for a while and so I came across this -- 搖滾怎麼了!! And then I remembered that I actually bought the single for this, the only single that I've ever bought. I am such a good fan I know (by the way, singles are a huge rip-off). And after that I proceeded to look for the MV (they should totally include this in the CD like hello I paid I-can't-remember-how-much for 1 track? but at least it's Leehom and I love Leehom <3 ) on Youtube. And then I started to have major Leehom concert withdrawal symptoms from last year!
I didn't even get to blog about my incredibly awesome Leehom-in-real-life-about-50-metres-away experience last year because the concert was on November 1st which, if you remember, was 2 days before A levels. Just watched a bunch of concert videos and oh man I forgot how high I was throughout the thing! I was damn impatient because as usual the concert started like an hour or something after it's supposed to but when it did I remember sitting really still and really quietly for awhile and feeling damn freaking overwhelmed. And surreal and in complete awe of what I was seeing. And starstruck and and like I was going to burst out crying for no apparent reason. Omg what if I can't find anyone to go to his concerts with me in the US!!! I think I gotta be prepared to pay people to go for his concerts with me. YI-LIN please come please come please come haha remember when we shook his hand?! Haha yes I have done a lot of rather fangirl-ish and embarrassing things but it don't matter because it's always worth it. And that sounded a bit gross.
I don't think anyone is going to actually watch this (except maybe Yi-lin if she's not busy with her happening life). Haha but it is okay I will click on it and watch it myself. Leehom in Singapore!
The song only starts like 2 minutes into the video because of the concert introduction and stuff. I was there, somewhere, and mesmerized throughout of course! And I think he sounds really good live! No different from and actually perhaps better than the CD and way more satisfaction anyhow :) Teehee okay no more of this intensive gushing I imagine that it gets annoying.
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| #113: just call my name, and i'll be there |
[July 10, 2009 @ 12:26am] |
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Oh man this is like the 10th time I've started the post. Don't know how to start entries! And I think I totally CANNOT express myself for nuts. I read the stuff I write and sometimes I'm like whaaaat was I thinking? Haha. Yeah I feel like ranting and writing all of my random thoughts on my walls right now so that I can literally see my thoughts surrounding me but that is obviously unfeasible because can you imagine your mom knowing everything you're thinking? I don't know I hate it when my mom knows exactly what's going through my head it's so freaky. I mean, yeah mothers are supposed to know their daughters really well but I totally don't understand how that can be possible. Been watching lots of Gilmore Girls so I do think it's pretty cool how Rory and Lorelai confide in each other like they're friends but seriously that's just weird.
And then I was thinking that I don't think there're people who know me better than my mom. Strangely. When I'm blogging and talking or expressing myself it's generally accommodating to whoever's hearing me. Or else whatever I'm saying is completely neutral. I don't know I guess I'm super uncomfortable with being judged and stuff. It's like one of those things I don't like about myself. Okay so right now I'm sort of trying to blog for myself.
Yup so lately lots of exciting things seem to be happening for lots of people. And I think that's awesome! I think it's awesome that people are already going into Chapter 2 of life and are totally enjoying themselves. I can't wait to start school too. It's been a good, tiring 18 years so far and even though university is still school it's like this real life plus school thing. And at 18 I think we're pretty much shaped? As in personality-wise. And fundamentally, we're probably going to remain the same. We're also finally treated as actual adults. It's kind of cool, not feeling like my world is totally falling apart every few days because of some weird trivial thing or some boy or whatever. So yeah, I'm constantly preparing myself for a NEW beginning and trying not to worry about the rest of the stuff. I really like that I'm going to New York because it's so, so diverse; I don't think there's anything else about the place that matters more right now.
I wanna meet people who I have loads in common with. I wanna meet people who are completely different. I wanna realize that some things that I feel like I'm alone in, I'm actually not. I decided (for now) that I wanna marry somebody who really understands me and is not painful to look at and is tall and is not annoying in any way and the rest doesn't really matter. I wanna re-meet people that I used to know and laugh and catch up. I want to have those 'airport moments' when you meet each other's eyes and then start shrieking and running towards each other and go 'OMG OMG OMG!'. And then we try really really hard not to drift apart again. Because it sucks to lose people and it sucks when people exit from your life and everything is different. And right now, everything is going to be different.
I don't think now is the right time to make plans. For me at least. I'm pretty much at the edge right now and I have no idea what's below. There's so far only one place right now that I can imagine myself living in years down the road, and very very weirdly it's Beijing. Hahaha I don't think I've said this to anyone before. Okay I'm expecting this to change but there are many many reasons and Beijing is really different from the rest of China. Okay I don't foresee this happening. As of now I think my parents are pretty much expecting me to stay in the US which is likely but I really can't tell because I haven't gone there. Hmmmmm.
Haha whatever mostly I just wanna have fun! Uni's gotta be fun. It has to. It absolutely has to. Trying not to get my hopes up but maybe I should just go all out being excited. Lol eh and Shoo please set up your Skype soon I miss talking to you!! I realize that we talk so much better in person; our very unfruitful online conversations are just too lame. Anyways I never seem to be able to have a general theme or whatever to my entries. Hahaha I would like to be able to write very interestingly well but oh well. BYEBYE. Pirated dvds await me.
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| #112: these streets are filled with memories |
[July 07, 2009 @ 8:05am] |
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Okay I'm about to spam photos! Haha I think blogging in detail about Sweden and whatever in words is just going to be tedious and boring to read so hence the spamming.
( Stockholm Syndrome )
Aight that's it! Haha mega spamming oops but I uploaded them all onto Photobucket already and pasting html codes is really rather convenient. :)
Going to watch Transformers tomorrow; it'd better be good like everyone says it is!!
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Oh man I realized the photos are really huge! Ugh but lazy to resize everything; sorry for the humongousness.
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| #111: love, actually is all around |
[July 06, 2009 @ 8:23am] |
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Okay so I planned to upload photos and spam the blog with photos today but I'm too lazy. Haha as usual. Tomorrow! Shall do it during the day when I have hours and hours of free time. Had a really busy week. Ex-neighbors came over from Singapore (haha Shoo Avenged Sevenfold) so we had some multi-family gatherings. I just got back a while ago and just finished watched Love Actually on TV while waiting for my hair to dry; I still cry at the same parts even though I've seen it like ten million times. Heee.
I super super miss being a kid right now. It's beginning to really sink in that school's starting again, that I'm going to be far away from almost everyone and everything I know. Life was truly awesome as a kid. I think I had a pretty good childhood; it was nice and there are a lot of good times that I can vaguely remember. It's a bit strange how stuff like this only feels like it mattered years and years down the road. When everything's so different that I can hardly believe that everything I vaguely remember actually happened. It's so strangely surreal.
And somehow it seems like life feels less perfect as we get older. I'm not about to start complaining that life sucks and blah blah blah, but I honestly think so and I'm really trying to come to terms with EVERYTHING right now. Sometimes I'm just plain scared of going away. I don't like it when people talk about how I'm going to be so far away and in future we probably won't see each other anymore. I want to keep in touch with everybody and a few years down the road we'll all reunite and shriek and hug at the airport like they did in Love Actually. :) I know that I'm making the right decision with regard to The Future, and I know everyone else is probably going through the same thing, but what if everything isn't what I expected it to be?
When I was little everytime we moved I'd make a huge fuss and usually beg my parents to let me stay where I am. I'd think that it was going to be horrible and that I was going to hate the place immensely. But it always turned out fine, much better than I expect at least. Now it's weird because I'm making the decision to go away from where I'm comfortable, and I actually think that things are going to be fine, and probably even better. So for some reason I have a feeling that it's going to suck because everything's always not what I expect...
I'm just really sick of analyzing my life. I'm tired of thinking about this and that and trying to come up with random pointless conclusions. I just really miss the times when all that seemed to matter were not pissing my mom off and playing stupid games with my little friends. Yeaaaah so whatever I think it's time to stop. And just whack. Hahaha not really into making plans anyways I just need random bursts of happiness once in a while to keep me going. Quoting www.givesmehope.com, "Life is beautiful today!" Yeah GMHers, optimism ftw.
Lol still wanna be a kid again for a while. But wth I'm 18 years old and life has to go on. Woohoo. Enough of this crap photos tomorrow and I'm off to watch shows until my eyes cannot stay open any longer.
By the way I am rather bummed that Andy Roddick lost today. Hahah bleagh. Whatever. Byeee.
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| #110: listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain |
[June 28, 2009 @ 8:44am] |
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I'm off to Sweden in the morning! Excited in general about going to someplace new but have no idea what to expect. Lots of Ikea and H&M? Haha. As usual, there's nothing really worth blogging about. But I have to document this lifestyle so that I can read about it in the future. I don't think I'm going to get another chance to live like a complete sloth. Sigh.
Got a new layout today. Had immense help from Lynette. Didn't do any of it myself (I tried but ended up unsuccessful and erasing all my settings in the process). So Lynette came to my rescue. That's what friends are for right! Yay. What else. Watched Wimbledon as usual. Murray is freaking awesome I was so in awe. I want my kid to be a tennis player omg then I can go watch all the matches and get awesome seats.
I'm also addicted to 陶喆. Yes recently listening to a bit of Chinese music because I can't find anymore new songs. Yeah but 陶喆 is really quite awesome. Almost as awesome as Leehom! Okay overall not really but I'm really really into his songs now. And I was reading stuff on the internet (I'm really really really free sorry) and it seems like he's a very good Christian. Found an interview where he talked about his relationship with God, and how God influences his career and his music. And the way he said things was easy to relate to and at the end of it I was somewhat inspired. And his songs seem to sound even better after sort of knowing where he's coming from. Hmm.
Okay that's it. Gotta wake up at 9 tomorrow so I'm going to watch shows and hopefully start feeling sleepy by 3?
Yup back on Friday. Then I can upload photos and I think I'll have more stuff to blog about. Byeeee.
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| #109: don't fade away |
[June 26, 2009 @ 7:56am] |
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OKAY so here's some of my month of June. In photos!
Haha I kind of like this one; I think my aunt or someone took it while I was playing badminton.
( CLICK FOR MORE! )
K. That's about it. Off to watch Gilmore Girls!
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| #108: what i would do |
[June 25, 2009 @ 1:25am] |
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It's been ages since I've blogged during the day! Hahaha. Okay as usual I've been on the couch since I woke up. Just had dinner. Had the awesome Peking duck from Sainsbury's (huge supermarket thing) which a few months ago apparently disappeared but is now back. (Mom and I cycled 4 ducks back) Lol.
Okay so I've been watching lots of Wimbledon. It's still on and basically for the entire afternoon I do all things while watching Wimbledon. And it keeps occurring to me how cool it'd be to be Roger Federer? I mean he's really got everything anyone could possibly want. He makes $$$$$$$$$$$$ playing tennis i.e. doing something that he actually enjoys doing. Plus he's practically the best player in tennis history. Plus he's happily married and going to be a dad. And every time he starts tearing and is all overjoyed I'm like wow it's another dream come true. I wish all my dreams could come true too? Damn.
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| #107: i'll find a way to shine |
[June 23, 2009 @ 7:07am] |
Spent most of the day figuring out visa crap for uni. I knew I forgot to do something! Haha it's times like this which make me totally thankful for my mother. She's terribly efficient and organized and I'm so not? I was freaking out and she got everything ready and told me everything I needed to do. Hahaha sigh I am so not ready to move away and live on my own.
Today was a really warm day. I ate a ton of giant strawberries. They are huge. I took 6 medium-sized bites per strawberry. When I'm feeling not-so-lazy to wash the blender afterwards, I'm going to make exotic fruity summer drinks! FRIENDS SEE WHAT YOU'RE MISSING OUT ON IF YOU DON'T COME ):
I feel life slowing down again... I hope school'll be full of things that I'd look forward to. I was thinking about people in general. So many people have come in and out and in and out of my life. And actually everyone is really special. And I have a feeling that someday, somewhere else we'll somehow meet again. And I'm super looking forward to that coincidence! I just hope that I'll be able to find another group of equally good friends in uni; I think it'd be easier to keep in touch after uni. Hate how things just fade away.
Haven't been able to stay up as late as I want to these days. I fell asleep randomly at 2.30 yesterday I think and then I woke up an hour later and resumed my msn conversations as if I was awake all along haha. The whole night was super fuzzy I have fuzzy impressions of what I typed and now it feels as if I was drunk or I was dreaming. Hahaha. Stupid jet-lag.
Not going to sleep before 4am today I gotta get my sleep cycle back!! Haha and if not I'm never going to finish my 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls, Private Practice and Skins. I really like Gilmore Girls I know it's old but it's just really really nice; it's funny, it's easy to relate to and Rory's boyfriends are all so goodlooking. Gosh.
Oh oh and Wimbledon has started. It's more awesome than usual because there's no time difference and I can watch all the matches I want :)
Haha this was totally random I know but I don't have anything in particular to blog about but I felt like blogging. Byee.
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| #106: would it matter anyway |
[June 22, 2009 @ 8:03am] |
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Bored! I kinda like way my stuff looks on both sides of my bed. Lotsa stuff with sentimental value. Conveniently made use of Bluetooth. I've got some other photos that I wanna post but they're not as convenient so yeah later I guess when I'm more bored and not lazy.
I don't know what to blog about? School starts in like 2 months. 2 months more of solid bumming. Argh I wish Scotland and Singapore were one MRT stop away like in Nat's dream! Haha then I wouldn't be missing so many people right now. Hmm I'm like studying the above photos as I type and I realize that almost everything on my bedside drawer was a gift. And some of the stuff on my desk too heee.
sheisthestar@gmail.com says: (8:38:32 AM) I REALISED IT'S SUPER UN FUN NOW THAT SCHOOL HAS ENDED sheisthestar@gmail.com says: (8:38:44 AM) COS EVEN IF THERE IS ANY GOSSIP WE WONT HEAR ABT IT
I miss school. Hahaha this is an utterly random entry forget it I'm going to go talk to Lynette will blog another time instead.
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| #105: summertime |
[June 09, 2009 @ 1:24pm] |
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I feel really MIA now I'm sorry friends for being a horrible absent friend lately :( Haha have a number of things to blog about but none in detail.
1. Shanghai! Another nice big city I really really really like big cities now so yay for uni choice.
2. I AM SICK OF SHOPPING. Haha ransacked H&M in Shanghai :) So recently I've acquired 4 pairs of shoes, 6 random tops, 2 dresses, 2 scarves, 2 pairs of shorts, 1 skirt, 1 vest, 1 pair of jeans, 1 polo tee, 1 cropped denim jacket + random basic tees and accessories. Actually it's not that much because shopping started from Scotland right before China and there's not much else to do in Beijing and Shanghai :)
3. I still want a new bag for school!
4. FRIENDS WHY ARE YOU GUYS NOT COMING TO SCOTLAND ANYMORE :( :(
5. I'm going to Wuhan tomorrow and I think it's going to be boring because it's small and not very modern.
6. I've been exercising!! Haha woke up at SIX FORTY FIVE to play badminton.
7. On Season 4 of Prison Break FINALLY. Nice nice nice nice nice show.
8. My relatives are rather fun! Kinda think the whole round-table-meals-with-everyone-drinking-beer culture in China is fun.
9. FRIENDS I MISS YOU GUYS! :( Lack of readily available internet from my grandparents' house + my Mac's incompatibility with Nanjing wireless is not helping.
10. Holidays are nice. There's nothing bothering me because I feel so damn far away.
11. Don't want school to start. Yet.
I'll upload photos or something sometime! Catch up soon friends :) Going to try and go online tomorrow night in the hotel.
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| #104: walking on sunshine |
[May 26, 2009 @ 11:44pm] |
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HI FROM BEIJING FRIENDS!
Haha I'm continuing with my already really slack life. But at least I have more things to do now; I don't bum around at home all day long anymore. Beijing is pretty awesome it's so nice and big and modern. I think I really need to live in a big city in the future. Feel so much happier in Beijing compared to Nanjing lol. Maybe it's because of the Olympics and stuff but Beijing's reasonably clean and there are tall modern buildings everywhere. It looks like a giant Singapore they even have Raffles City hahaha. Been shopping like mad since the moment I got here haha. Shopping and eating are my main activities now. Bought 3 pairs of shoes yesterday, which means I bought 4 pairs of shoes in the last 2 weeks. Haha.
Ate a ton of sashimi just now. Finally satisfied my cravings for sashimi and bubble tea. Overdid it a bit I think my stomach's not doing so good. Haha nighttime life is still quite the same though! Plopped on the bed once more with French Open and msn and Prison Break. :D I love this holiday life now I don't want school to start at all ):
Okay too lazy to go on. Toodles
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| #103: hit restart, pause it at our favorite parts, skip the goodbyes |
[May 18, 2009 @ 9:27am] |
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I am completely numb with respect to everything that is happening in my life right now.
I think about a lot of things daily, but they don't make me feel sad. Or happy. Or anything at all really.
I feel like I'm really growing up? And honestly it scares me.
Okay so One Tree Hill was showing on TV today. Random episode from S5 which felt quite relevant to life nowadays coincidentally.
"Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you’re looking back instead of forward you wanna believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You wanna believe that you’re leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered."
And then I was thinking like because OTH shows the characters during high school, and then after high school, which is kinda like what a lot of us J3s are going through right now. And they are obviously a lot more grown-up in S5, compared to the earlier seasons which I'd been catching up on (I really have a lot of time I know). Life out of school seems way different and so much more unprotected. September is getting nearer and nearer. I'm going to be living by myself and taking care of myself from September onwards!! I'm excited, but really really scared too. Plans almost never follow through (by plans I mean relatively realistic hopes and dreams), so who knows what we're in for man.
I think I got over everything already. Totally ready to move on with life. It's just that there are days in the past which are very worth reliving, and moments that really feel like they matter. Hopefully there'll be a lot more to come in the future?
Haha but whatever all thoughts will be put on hold when I go to China which is in ONE DAY! Whoohoo. Slightly bummed that I can't watch American Idol on TV but oh well there's always greatstufftv. Tomorrow will be spent packing :( and starting S3 of Prison Break. I'm getting addicted hahaha I highly recommend it. Aight that's it.
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| #102: i remember all of those instances when you smiled |
[May 16, 2009 @ 7:29am] |
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4 more days! And then I'm off to China. Haha okay it doesn't sound very happening. But I was telling a random volleyball person that I was going to China and she seemed to think it was really cool and faraway so it IS happening when I'm all the way in Scotland aight. Regardless, I'm really really excited. Haven't been back for ages (since Sec 4) so I'm looking forward to see my extended family members again.
Hmm what else. Life's still pretty much the same; my days still consist of alternating movement between my bed and the couch in the living room and the kitchen. Oh oh went shopping yesterday with the mother. Bought a substantial amount of clothing and a new pair of shoes! Super happy with the lot (no items were bought at the original price btw yes my mom and I are just too good I know), and I'm also looking forward to my holiday because I can actually wear the stuff. I kinda just stay dressed in what I sleep in these days lol.
Nothing much to blog about actually but I feel like typing stuff out? Haha. I'm getting more excited for university now! I don't like how everything is very temporary right now. Going off to university's going to be a huge step actually, come to think of it. I've always assumed that I'd just stay on in the US after I graduate. So I guess when time comes to go off it's goodbye to many things. Haha maybe by the time we graduate China will be powerful and cool so I'll work in China? Or maybe I'll run into Leehom in NY and then I'll fly back to Taiwan and marry him :D:D Or perhaps I'll go back to Singapore. I really don't know omg I wonder where I'm going to end up.
Ah shit I miss a lot of people and a lot of things! I'm not particularly emo or depressed or anything. I'm mostly in a good mood and very contented with my life at the moment but it kind of sucks to realize that a lot of things don't matter anymore. I can think of a number of things lately that would have made me very happy/very annoyed previously, but not anymore. I feel numb. I try not to care about anything because there's no point.
Really can't wait for Lydia and Shoo to get here!! Haha. We can relive the old times one last time :) It's so scary because I don't know when the next time we meet up after that will be. And that pretty much goes for all the people I miss right now? Oh gosh. Must keep in touch because I know I'll feel the loss at some point.
Nothing lasts,
but there are some things you'll never forget
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| #100: all i need is a little help, that can only come from You |
[May 11, 2009 @ 8:58am] |
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I give up trying to figure everything out.
Yeah. So even if I miss everything, even if I'm scared, even if I want you to talk to me but you don't, even if nothing exciting happens anytime soon, even if plans don't follow through...I guess it's alright. Whatever.
I just hope that I've already done everything that I can and that for everything I don't like, I can't do anything about it anyways.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not depend on your own understanding.
In all your ways remember Him. Then He will make your paths smooth and straight.
Don't be wise in your own eyes. Have respect for the Lord and avoid evil.
That will bring health to your body. It will make your bones strong.
Honor the Lord with your wealth. Give Him the first share of all your crops.
Then your storerooms will be so full they can't hold everything. Your huge jars will spill over with fresh wine."
- Proverbs 3:5-10
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| #97: let it take me where it wants me to go |
[May 07, 2009 @ 10:35am] |
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I feel like rambling. Really don't feel like sleeping till I absolutely can't keep my eyes open anymore so here I am. Okay this is going to be quite rambly beware. 25 minutes to 4am haha 4am is becoming my earliest bedtime. But I keep telling myself that I'm not screwing up my lifestyle at all because I'm going to be traveling around a lot in the next 4 months so no jet-lag for me!
Okay it's like 10.40am in China that's not good. But I think it's like close to midnight in NYC, perfectly reasonable bedtime eh. OH YEAH. Since people have been discussing/announcing their decisions lately, I guess I could do that too. I didn't really have a hard time deciding because I didn't have a whole lot of schools to choose from and being so talentless I didn't have many different paths to choose from either. Hahaha I totally just eliminated everything that I know I wouldn't and couldn't do: Law, Medicine, Science-related things, arty things, Politics, Humans...the list is pretty long.
Yup so I'm doing Business at NYU! Everything fell into place in the end. Thank God of course. Been sure about this for ages already, ever since Shoo and I had awesome macha at Shokudo which I am totally craving now btw. Just filled in my housing application. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GIVE ME AWESOME FUN RETARDED NON-PROMISCUOUS ROOMMATES!! And please give me cheap rooms. Haha I'm half-scared half-excited still. Like yeah living in the city with all these things to explore and do sounds totally awesome. But on the other hand it's back to school again and since when was I even into going to school. Can't really remember how it feels like, waking up like 2 hours from now to, err, learn things.
My current lifestyle is so piggish I can hardly believe myself. Today (yesterday) I woke up at 12pm. I went downstairs and made myself random yummy stuff for lunch. I plopped myself on the couch and watched Wentworth Miller on some show and then I watched Gilmore Girls (which is so nice btw). Then I plopped myself on my bed and did random things on my laptop and then I watched 2 episodes of Prison Break. Went back downstairs for dinner. Plopped myself in front of the TV with Outliers to read during ads. Then came back up and watched 90210. And now I'm here. Hahah I am so not going to last through school.
Life is so boring but so enjoyable because it's sooooooooo slack. I feel like I randomly retired. Yeah nothing exciting but nothing bothering me and stressing me out which is a fair trade off. Totally moved on with respect to everything that bothered me in the near past (hahah what's the opposite of 'near future'?).
OKAY. Dundee till 19th May (shopping spree next week hopefully!!!), China (Nanjing/Beijing/Shanghai) till 19th June, Sweden (possibly since Dad has some conference there) late June-ish, Lau and Shoo coming to Scotland 16th-30th July, hopefully can cram a visit to Norway amidst all that, NYU 30th August!!! Then my independent life begins wow.
Seems pretty packed eh but it's so not it's just slacking all the wayyy. I feel so gross. Think I'll go sleep.
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| #96: and i swear that you don't have to go |
[May 05, 2009 @ 7:41am] |
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I've been watching the sweetest movies lately. Penelope, The Wedding Singer and Serendipity (:
Omg they're really nice and I don't know; they're incredibly perfect but not in a very annoying way? Haha if you get what I mean.
Yeah but back to real life. Boring. It's good but it's boring. I was re-reading my posts during 'A' level period and wow I sounded pretty stressed out hahah and it's just kind of funny now, when I'm sprawled on my bed watching movies/reading/listening to music at 3am on a weekday. Yup, good ol' boring life.
Okay but if you think about it, movies last about 2 hours. So basically, depending on the story, the filmmakers cram the lives of the characters into a measly 2 hours. So actually we're only getting to see the interesting parts of the lives of the movie people. They totally omit the uninteresting parts i.e. the mundane aspects of everyday life. And all the random ups and downs culminate to one single incredibly awesome moment in the end that makes you feel like everything that happened before that was so so so worth it. Yeaaah so life's really a movie if we get that moment. If. If only.
I need to stop guessing. Like really stop wondering about what's going to happen next, and whether I'm really doing what I should be doing. It's tiring trying to interpret life. And it's impossible. Yeah so whatever, I guess I just want everything to be perfect eventually. At least for one, single moment. :) Please.
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[April 30, 2009 @ 11:37pm] |
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HIYA FRIENDS! I'm rather bored so I'm going to introduce some of Scotland (& some of its neighbours) to you :D
Hahah Lau and Shoo minor preview for you guys lolll. Click for photos!
( so-called home )
Alright. Hmm Photobucket has some share album thingy but I don't know if it's going to work so yeaaaah shall give it a try I can't find any new shows I feel like watching.
Byeeeee.
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| #94: headlines read out |
[April 27, 2009 @ 9:28pm] |
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Haha I stole this from Yi-lin! :D Kept me occupied for a while but now I'm bored again. And I can't seem to like name my ljcut thingys. Okay whatever. Bye.
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[April 25, 2009 @ 8:56am] |
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I think I'm getting sick of talking/thinking about The Future.
I don't think it's going to be all that great and exciting when we're really there because whatever I'm going to be doing it's still Life and Life in general kind of sucks.
My mom took out boxes and boxes of photo albums from the garage for me to sort out and that was kind of fun. I obtained a mini recap of my life so far and I remembered a lot of things which I had otherwise forgotten. You're right, it's the memories that count. But it really scares me though; time is passing by waaay too quickly.
I don't think I'm quite ready to live on my own and look out for myself and fight for my survival in the Real World. I kinda just wanna stay put and remember all the nice things that happened in my life so far, feel happy that they happened and wonder if whoever's involved in the memory remembers too. Feels like some big changes are about to be made and I don't know how to prepare myself.
Utterly unrelated and on a lighter note, I finally transferred all my Leehom CDs to my iTunes :) Hahaha. I don't think I'm going to ever get over how perfect he is oh gosh. The world needs more of these people! I was looking through the stuff and i think he was like valedictorian of his high school + National Merit Scholar? And then of course there's the perfect score for SATs and Williams College. How kick-ass is that eh Shoo :D Plus he was some baseball pro. So basically he's handsome and hot and sporty and musical and smart and he can speak a ton of languages. AND he has a good sense of humour. Wow. Hahaha I'm going to stop the gushing it just makes it sadder that I'm probably not going to ever meet this very perfect guy. Damnzzzzzz.
Supposed to sleep by 3am which is 20mins away and I'm not sleepy at allllllll.
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